This time of year is mostly about getting through the days, allowing the stormy sea of grief to rise up and crash over us. Letting the memories come, letting the guilt rear its ugly head and not wasting our energy fighting against it. Holding fast to the beautiful memories we have of Jessica, to the… Read More
On 14 April, it will be four years since Jessica died. It feels hard to believe that we have lived through four years without our beautiful girl. Jessica spread so much joy in her short life that her godmother once referred to her as a “joy carrier”. It was such a perfect description of our… Read More
At the start of the year, I decided to take on the #1000hoursoutside challenge. This is my second year taking on this challenge, having managed to complete it in 2020. Setting myself a challenge is a great way to motivate me to spend more time outside especially in the winter months when staying indoors much… Read More
This week has been quite a tough one. Sophie and I tested positive for Covid on Saturday, then Thomas completed the set on Sunday. Other than Sophie having a high temperature and being very tired one evening and Thomas having a bit of a cough and runny nose, the children haven’t been particularly unwell. I… Read More
March was never going to be an easy month for us. This time of year is hard with the storms of grief that come more frequently as we travel through the memories of last-times with Jessica as we get closer and closer to the anniversary of her death. This month, Covid finally caught up with… Read More
We’ve managed to avoid it for two years but Covid has finally hit our house. Hubby tested positive on Tuesday evening and while the children and I are still currently testing negative, I’ve been feeling pretty grotty today so I’m expecting my result to change at some point. Hubby’s not been too bad, mostly feeling… Read More
I’m feeling a little drained this week. Lots of emotions swirling around making me feel emotionally drained, and a few too many balls to juggle leaving me physically drained. It’s to be expected in some ways. We’re coming up to the fourth anniversary of Jessica’s death, which is just under a month away,… Read More