For three years, I have taken part in a daily gratitude challenge, sharing a photo of one thing I am thankful for each day on Instagram. There have been days when finding little things to be grateful for has been very easy to do and others when it has been incredibly hard. Life as a bereaved parent is quite a rollercoaster at times. There have been many moments when I don’t feel grateful for anything at all – just broken and bruised. However, looking for those little moments has helped me even on the darkest of days. Hard though it may be at times, I have always managed to find something to be thankful for.
My eldest daughter Jessica was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. I continue with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
If you would like to join me in a daily gratitude challenge for 2019, do feel free to use the hashtag #LHBL365daysofgratitude2019 on Instagram so I can find your posts there.
Day 27 – I am grateful that this little lady has had a fun-filled day. She had a great time at her friend’s soft play party this morning and then Daddy took her to see the local panto this afternoon.
Day 28 – I am grateful that I got to see Jessica cuddle Thomas in my dreams last night. It’s the first time they’ve been in my dreams together. Jessica looked so excited and proud as she held her little brother and he gave her the biggest smiles. I took lots of photos in my dream – wouldn’t it have been wonderful if they could have appeared on my phone when I woke up? This beautiful and thoughtful gift from a kind friend is the nearest thing I have to a photo of Jessica cuddling Thomas but I now have a memory of that moment and a picture in my head even if it was just from a dream.
Day 29 – I am grateful that Sophie had such a wonderful evening playing at her preschool friend’s house.
Day 30 – I am grateful for dens. Sophie and Thomas seemed quite happy in the one Sophie made using blankets and Thomas’s playmat.
Day 31 – I am grateful that this gorgeous happy boy had a lovely two hour nap snuggled up to me in the sling this morning while I got on with lots of little jobs.
Day 32 – I am grateful for a snow day.
Day 33 – I am grateful for a family games evening.