I’m sure I’m not alone in the feeling of déjà vu as we get closer to Christmas with the current sharp rise in Covid cases. We’ve been cancelling activities this week in the hope that we might be able to have Christmas as planned but I can’t help feeling that we’ll be forced to change them at the last minute, just like last year.
I’m sad about the cancelled Christmas sessions at Thomas’s toddler group, the missed carol concert at Sophie’s school and all the other things we had planned that we’ve had to pull out of, plus the uncertainty and the anxiety has made me very stressed this week. Christmas is a tough time of year anyway and I’ve had more than one moment of wishing I could just forget it all and escape to a desert island! I know that we’re very fortunate, that there are many, many people in the world far worse off than we are and that whatever happens, we’ll get through as best we can. For now, we’ll do our best to stay as safe as we can and keep everything crossed for a Covid-free Christmas!
What I’ve been grateful for this week:
- Day 344 – I am grateful for my kind caring little girl who has been so helpful this afternoon while I’ve been struggling to function due to vertigo. She’s helped look after me and Thomas and gone out of her way to do little helpful things.
- Day 345 – I am grateful for my lovely church family who baked for my coffee morning today as I was unable to do so and helped out with serving tea and coffee and entertaining Thomas. Vertigo is a little better today but I’m still struggling with moving about too much and the help has been so much appreciated. Thank you too to everyone who came along and helped us fundraise for Little Hearts Matter.
- Day 346 – I am grateful for a safe space for grief in the run-up to Christmas. We took Jessica’s Christmas wreath to her forever bed today and lit a candle for her at the Christmas remembrance service. It’s not how Christmas should ever have to be but it is our reality and it is important to have that space for all the emotions and the love to be expressed freely, especially at a time of year when there is so much pressure to be merry and make Christmas magical. Sending love to all those I know who are also finding Christmas especially hard due to grief. Hope you can also find the safe spaces you need to help make the festive season a little more bearable x
- Day 347 – I am grateful for Sophie’s creativity and imagination.
- Day 348 – I am grateful for an encouraging report from preschool for my baby boy.
- Day 349 – I am grateful for my lovely new sofa.
- Day 350 – I am grateful for a haircut for Thomas.
Other things that have made me smile this week:
- The recycled Nativity at church made by the Girls’ Brigade.
- Seeing Father Christmas at the Christmas remembrance service at GreenAcres.
- Thomas and Sophie being able to enjoy their Christmas party days at school.