Last weekend was my twin sister’s wedding and it was such a beautiful, if bittersweet at times, day. Sophie and I were bridesmaids and Thomas was a page boy. He looked absolutely adorable in his little suit and Sophie looked beautiful in her bridesmaid dress. Jessica wasn’t forgotten – her picture was on a little charm attached to all the bouquets; there was a bouquet for her (which I carried) and her photo was with my dad’s photo on the table next to the wedding cake.
The run-up to the wedding was quite an emotional time for me. Jessica’s absence is always more keenly felt during special occasions, and I often find the lead-up to big days much harder than the actual day itself. Last weekend was no exception to that. It broke my heart that Jessica wasn’t there, being part of the wedding party along with her little sister and brother. She would have been so very excited about it all.
Having to face these kinds of special occasions without Jessica is hard enough, but this time it also came with an extra helping of anxiety over Covid and whether people would respect the rules over social distancing. My family is very huggy normally, and while it was lovely to see all my brothers and sister at the wedding, it was very strange not being able to hug them and having to be a little more distanced from them.
It was a beautiful wedding though and my twin sister and new brother-in-law were so very happy. I’m so glad that they were able to have their wedding – and just got in before the restrictions changed and the limit on guest numbers dropped from 30 to 15.
Sadly, I also attended a funeral this week too – my god-daughter’s dad who recently died of cancer. Before he died, he asked if I would sing ‘Amazing Grace’ at his funeral. It was an honour to sing for him, although it was hard to do so, and I hope that I did him proud.
Things that have made me smile over the last couple of weeks
- Sophie being able to take part in Girls’ Brigade again via Zoom.
- Our teeny-tiny sunflower in the garden which is just 21cm tall.
- Spending time out in the garden and making the most of the last of the warm weather.
- Early morning snuggles with Thomas.
- Finally getting to enjoy a tomato from our tomato plant – it only grew three tomatoes and Thomas picked two of them while they were still green.
- Sophie having a couple of visits from the tooth fairy after losing two more teeth within a few days of each other.
- Going for walks with Thomas.
- Watching Sophie and Thomas playing hide ‘n’ seek among the trees on an after-school trip to Langley Park.