For three years, I have taken part in a daily gratitude challenge, sharing a photo of one thing I am thankful for each day on Instagram. There have been days when finding little things to be grateful for has been very easy to do and others when it has been incredibly hard. Life as a bereaved parent is quite a rollercoaster at times. There have been many moments when I don’t feel grateful for anything at all – just broken and bruised. However, looking for those little moments has helped me even on the darkest of days. Hard though it may be at times, I have always managed to find something to be thankful for.
My eldest daughter Jessica was an inspiration to me throughout her short life. She had so much strength and such a wonderful zest for life. Her godmother described her once as a “joy carrier” and it was the perfect description for her. She was a little ray of sunshine, full of smiles and gave joy to all who knew her. I am, and will always be, grateful to be her mummy. She taught me to enjoy the little moments and to make the most of everyday because tomorrow is never promised. I continue with this challenge in honour of my beautiful brave girl.
If you would like to join me in a daily gratitude challenge for 2019, do feel free to use the hashtag #LHBL365daysofgratitude2019 on Instagram so I can find your posts there.
Day 76 – I am grateful that we managed to mostly avoid the rain and hail on our walk along the canal.
Day 77 – I am grateful that Thomas had a lovely nap in the buggy while my mum and I enjoyed a walk around Ruislip Lido.
Day 78 – I am grateful for my mum. It has been so lovely having her stay for the last few days. Life always feels a little easier when my mum is around. She has a wonderful ability to know when to be there and when to step back; she helps out in so many little ways and is such an amazing Nanny. Thomas and Sophie have loved the fun, the love and the cuddles they have had and we will all miss Nanny when she goes home tomorrow. Thank you Mum for all you do xx
Day 79 – I am grateful for the wonderful skilled woodcarvers at Lillyfee Woodcarving Studio and the beautiful memorial they created for Jessica which was put in place at her forever bed this morning. She’s sitting here holding her Kerry and the detail is amazing. I know exactly what outfit she is wearing; those shoes are still in the corner of our lounge where she last left them and even the exact way she often sat is captured here. Such a beautiful tribute to our big girl.
Day 80 – I am grateful that the evenings are now light enough for after-school adventures.
Day 81 – I am grateful for the little rainbow butterfly that Jessica’s friend made Sophie to hang in her room and remind her of Jessica. Also very proud of how well Sophie is doing with her reading – she moved up another reading level to blue books this week and received her gold Reading Raccoon certificate. Well done Sophie!
Day 82 – I am grateful that Thomas enjoyed going on the swings at the park for the first time.