Today I am feeling frazzled. Trying to get too much done in too little time. Frustrated by the constant requests, the constant demands, the constant mess. The hamster wheel that parenting can be sometimes.
I just want a few minutes peace.
I want some time to myself.
I want a bit of personal space.
I want to be able to sit on the sofa, hot cup of coffee in hand and not be a climbing frame.
I want to sleep in a bed by myself without a fidgety child next to me all night.
I want to be able to walk out of the room for a moment and not return to a scene of chaos.
And then I realise that one day those wishes will be granted.
One day I will miss those little arms clinging so tightly around my neck, or holding on to my leg.
One day, I will have peace and quiet and the house will feel empty.
One day I will miss these moments.
I will miss the fact that I am no longer the centre of my child’s world.
I will miss that little person snuggled up close to me.
I will miss the little voice constantly calling for Mummy.
I will miss the little giggles and the shrieks of laughter as my children chase each other around the house.
I will miss the moments of feeling needed.
I will miss bedtime stories and sleepy snuggles.
I will miss those moments of being able to make everything all right just by being there.
I will miss the sticky fingers and the stickier kisses.
I will miss that feeling of being so completely loved just because I am Mummy.
I will look back on the little moments when my children were tiny and wish that I could just replay them again.
Today I am Mummy, I am everything that my children need.
Today I can make my children happy just by being there, just by spending time with them.
Today I will enjoy the snuggles and the cuddles and the precious moments that will pass me by all too soon.
The to-do list can wait. Today we are making memories.